I can clearly recall the day this photo was taken. August 12, 2017. I was 28 weeks pregnant and still barely showing. I had been preparing for the day I would take my maternity pictures for weeks! I had envisioned it all in my head for so long. I wanted a floral garden theme in the warm Summer weather. (I know. I'm such an August baby! I don't know what it is but, I just love the extra warm, bright, sunny days of the month of August.) I also was greatly inspired by Beyonce's ground-breaking pregnancy photo that came out not too long before this.
Since we lived near Brooklyn Botanical Garden, I decided that would be the perfect place to do the shoot. My husband has never been fond of taking pictures and usually I have to put up a huge debate in order to get him to pose for even just one photo. This time around however, I didn't even put up a fight with him. I wanted this to be all about me and my little girl growing inside of me. He of course couldn't be more pleased to carry my things around the garden and watch me pose for the photographer over and over again.
I remember being so excited and nervous all at once. I wanted my photos to be perfect. It was my first maternity shoot and everything was extremely sentimental to me during this time. Looking back at these photos today, I can't help but smile. Each time I look at them it's like I get to relive the feeling and emotions I felt while I had my little angel in my belly. It was the best feeling in the world for me to know that I was responsible for creating something that was still a stranger to many and yet so well known by me alone . Knowing that the person I was growing inside of me would one day become a part of the same world that I was a part of, made me feel like the most powerful woman alive. I would think about all of the endless possibilities for this child, MY child, in the future. I would think about the lives that she will touch, the marks that she will make, the standards she will challenge, and all that she will accomplish. Thinking of it all made my heart feel so heavy, both in a good way and a bad way. I was filled with gratitude to have been blessed with the gift of bringing a human into the world. As you may understand however, that comes with an intense fear along with worries of all the ways that you can "mess it up" (for lack of a better word).
I thanked God every single day while I was pregnant for this gift and still continue to do so each and every day of my life. However, I also pleaded for his guidance in this new job I was given which I knew very little of. There's no doubt about the fact that I still continuously pray to the Lord for his guidance in motherhood, the difference is that now and with time in the future as well, I have the great joy of experiencing the results of His immeasurable support...
...Sew This is Life!
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